Thursday, October 15, 2009

Still Cranky

I haven't written about it much of late, but I still get cranky. Especially at bedtime. At the end of the day, I just have no ability to let it "roll off my back" and I can get quite crabby very easily. In addition to the low tolerance level I have at bedtime, I don't seem to have much flexibility in general.

Yeah, it's not just at bedtime. It feels like the demands of life are too high and there's little ability to absorb anything else. Admittedly, my absorption capabilities are higher in the morning than at night, but that's a fairly fine distinction lately.

I'm taking a few days off at the end of the month. I'm hoping to unwind and, if possible, be irresponsible, if only for a few hours. That should take the edge off.


steve said...

It's the only responsible thing to do.

I wish I had some words of wisdom, but I'm right there in Cranky-ville with you. Wouldn't that be an excellent Facebook game?

Lisa Emrich said...

Cranky-ville - I might even play that one.

Lately due to health issues with my roommate/caregiver/Mom, I have not had nearly as much "alone time" as I need to be a chipper person. It has really affected my mental health lately in a negative way.

Do you find that you simply get saturated? I do....and I'm not even responsible for anyone to the extent either of you are. Hats off to you both.

Anonymous said...

When you say "It feels like the demands of life are too high and there's little ability to absorb anything else" I think that's why bedtime is typically annoying, another day ends and you don't feel like its been a productive/fun/interesting/fill-in-the adjective-here day.

End-of-the-month time-off? Maybe a chance to play dress-up or laugh uncontrollably at Canadian humour? (with a 'u')

What would you do to be irresponsible? A poker match perhaps? Got any friends that would like to lose $100 to you? We could play in the garage and smoke stogies...
I'm in!

L (aka PokerFace)

Anonymous said...

Hi Cranky! I think that being irresponsible is a necessity for all of us! I can't imagine being a caregiver on a full time basis, I had a hard time taking care of my boys when they got sick a few weeks ago. I know that feeling of not being able to let things roll off your back...I harbour everything way too much...takes a few glasses of wine to relax sometimes!!

zoomdoggies said...

Feeling cranky? Glad to hear it! Saints can be so hard to live with.

Acknowledging the you've got limits, recognizing that you're there, and doing something about it -- you're doing it right!

Cranky said...

Steve - yes, Crankyville would be a great FB game. However, since I'm currently addicted to 3 of them, I don't need another!

Lisa - yes saturated is a perfect word for the feeling. Overwhelmed, filled to the brim, would also work.

L - you may be right about some of the feeling at the end of the day. But, there's something even simpler at work ... I just want to climb into bed without having 20-30 minutes of care for Skip before doing that. I long for the days when I'd go to bed about 2 hours before Skip and she'd come in and get herself to bed. She was even able to do that in her early wheelchair days, but, alas, no longer.

Rain - you know, a few drinks to relax is a good way to chill. Maybe I should get a bit tipsy! I haven't had anything to drink in the longest time ...

Zoomer - I fess up to the limits and that I've hit them. Doing something about it ... now that's the hard part.